Wonderland

I apologize for not posting much here on LJ anymore.

I'm swamped with work.

Buuut, you can get in touch with me through:

http://www.ellicole.blogspot.com

http://www.fanfiction.net/~ellicole

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triplej_14@hotmail.com


I love you all. <3

So. My gramma passed away a week ago.

I miss her.

Sorry if I haven't been on much here. I've been busy.

Flunked two subjects.

Two.

... Algebra and PE.

... fucking sucks.


*Missing you, sakurastears

I'm tired. And sick.

And so stressed out I might die.



Things to do:

1. Filipino Talumpati for the Debate on Monday.
2. Script (1) for Animo Teatro about a girl named Annette. Schitzophrenic psychopath.
3. Script (2) for Tripod about a boy named Anthony. Killed by his own bestfriend out of jealousy.
4. Papers done for Animo.

So... yeah. A lot has been happening but I can't remember all of them to really put them down here. D:

Damn, college is a deathtrap for lazy asses like me.


I celebrated my birthday last Saturday like the crap I am. :D But anyways, I'm seventeen now so... Youth is almost out of my grasp. -_-;

Why are they so freaking insensitive?

...

I give all of them poison now. D:

...

*dies*

@_@ anyway. I'm too tired. Too freaking tired.

I'm dead now.




College kills.

"I drown out all my sins with the sound of his breathing..." Damn right.

Yeah... we did.

Just a few minutes ago.

It's now 6:51 PM of June 29, 2007. Friday.

I cried for a good 10 minutes.

Why?

Cos he's worth it.

He told me, "I can't love you..."

But our friend said, "He loves you. But just doesn't admit it to himself. He has gone through a lot."

And I know that. But why end the relationship?

...

This is the last memorabilia I have of our relationship as of today:



That's him playing Bass.

This is what I told him:

є ℓ ℓ ι * ¢ σ ℓ є ] says:
Friends, okay. I still like you but fine. Whatever. You can't really like me back anyways. I'll move on. I just hope you get over your fear of falling in love. I know that you know what love means but you just don't acknowledge it. You didn't have to give up. You learn through mistakes and hurts. You just didn't really like me back enough.

є ℓ ℓ ι * ¢ σ ℓ є ] says:
But anyway, don't feel bad (but I hope you do cos I'm mean that way) and get over it. I hope you have a great day (which hopefully isn't as great as mine).





I HAVE been expecting this to happen but not this early. We've been at it for four months and I thought that it would stay a little bit longer. Unfortunately, he THINKS I deserve better.

BUT WHAT ABOUT WHAT I THINK?

Dammit. Love bites.

Fuck him. I'll make him regret the day he broke up with me.

That fucker.

 

I thank fonziebella (my cousin), Nicol (one of my best friends), Ilan (Nicol's boyfriend and apparently one of my good friends now), and Kyle (one of my best friends in AAV) for being there for me. I love you guys.

 

 

I'm doomed.

I can't do my homework without an algebra book. DOOMED! T_T

AND I have to memorize this piece for Filipino! D: CRAPPY DAY! T_T


More piccies from our Photoshoot for Tripod will be posted soon. ^^

It hurts too much to even think about it but...

Have you ever loved someone who was just too far away? That it hurts you to even think that he might not even think about you the same way? *sighs* I just wanna graduate... and be with him finally.

Iowa... here I come. 8D



*sighs* Had an interesting MSN convo with Sans earlier. D:
I think our relationship is worth the hurt. 8D


Oh, and I flunked my Algebra long exam. 8D damn, I effing suck.

Okay.

My first (and it was so fucking long too) entry for yesterday got deleted. So I'm going to make this short.

Friday Night:

The party was rad. I liked it. Took lots of pictures. Saw crush/es. 1st crush sang; cute face, horrible voice. 2nd crush; went home early.

Saturday:

Talked to Sans via video convo. Really adorable. 8D

Sunday:

Waiting for Sans to talk to me. But noo~ he hasn't talked to me yet for the last couple of hours that I'm on-line. Wtf.
So now, I'm going to the mall to change my frames for my glasses. 8D finally. :D

Monday (stuff to do):

1. Algebra long exam.
2. Filipino draft for Talumpati on Friday.
3. Activity form for Animo.


Note: Pictures from the party will be posted later. :D


Now, I'm off.

You'd think that I'm fine but I'm not.

Really, I am not. Nobody believes it, though as much as they know since I always, as much as possible, smile.

Stupid effing insects!

DIE!

*cough* anyways, today, it was boring. As expected from my schedule: Algebra at 8 to 9.40, then I'm free till 1 afterwards. Next, GenPsych, then RelsOne till 4.20. D:

It sucks. My schedule isn't tight but the teachers are freaking boring.

I'm not learning anything.

Fucking college, sigh.

My head hurts. Anyways, I'm going to take pics of the so-called "party" for tomorrow.  I have a feeling it's not going to bode well for me. I'll prolly trip while walking somewhere dark or something. Anyways.

Position for tomorrow's party: Videographer.

Homeworks due tomorrow: Algebra, English, Filipino.

Lols. Stalker program tomorrow. D:

Let's see what interesting things would unfold when I take pictures of unsuspecting victims. >3

*evil laugh*

Today...

Walked from Ph6 to Ph5. T'was a really long walk. Then hanged out with ate Rahnz till... I don't know... almost ten in the evening?

Very very tiring, yes.

[EDIT:]

ARGH.

The stupid Veoh vid won't turn up!

But anyways, it doesn't matter. :D

Today was boring. Nothing interesting happened except when I bugged Sans about--something.

That something is confidential and rather not be discussed but be completely forgotten. x3

Tch. Men.

*ish now reading Lovely Complex and dies at the kawaii-ness*

[before edit was the video for the Harry Potter, Order of the Phoenix trailer.]

10 Weird Things About Moi.

10. I bite my nails.
9. I sit with my legs up.
(From this point on, I have nothing more to say but...)
8. I am a pervert.
7. I itch a lot. o.o;;
6. I'm bi-curious. (prolly already bi-sexual but hey.)
5. I'm more into anime porn than real-life porn.
4. I have a funny laugh. (hah, says the girl who laughs weirder than me.)
3. I "talk" funny. (again, courtesy of my weirder friend.)
2. I'm too open-minded. No. Seriously.
1. I... I'm now totally speechless. D:

Tagged By:

adriennelouise

 

I shall tag 6 people. When I'm not lazy anymore. D:

I miss my Sans-kun. T.T

I miss my Sans-kun.

I suddenly remembered him earlier (Religion class) and started giggling to myself.

Yesterday was uber fun. :D


Okay, so what happened today?

1. Morning; copied off of my seatmate's homework. I suck.

2. Alex, Alex, Alex.

3. James was hilarious during Religion class.

4. Pitching time; I tried my hardest to get my midnight lunacy and good thing, some of it worked and I got a decent presentation. :D

5. Wee. Alex, Alex, Alex. xD

6. Sans. Sans. SANS! <3


I'm kind of nervous for my Algebra class tomorrow. I absolutely SUCK at Algebra. D:

Finally.

Love my Sans-kun. <3

Talked to him through MSN a few minutes ago. THE first time I talked to him. x3 well... in voice conversation, I mean. He's the MOST adorable thing ever. His voice is extremely hilarious and I just love hearing it (starting from now, anyways.)



Tasks for tomorrow:

1. Algebra homework. (I haven't done it yet. Bloody thing is too hard! D:)
2. Tripod presentation. (Oh holy mackerel! Good luck to me on that one! D:)
3. Logo and tagline for Animo Teatro. (Heh. Here's hoping it can wait a little bit longer.)
4. ... I forgot my other homeworks, dammit!



Life's a dog.

You don't know when and where it will shit and pee next.


*dies*

So yeah, life does suck. Like that. It seems like every single day of my bloody life is a waste of valuable time and space.

Do you guys think that I should just go emo and stuff?

Haha. Yeah, I doubt you'd like that. It's pathetic, seriously. Why would anybody kill themselves over something totally unimportant?

...

I have a friend who's like that.

But enough about being emo, I wanna tell you my day(s) from college.

It bloody sucks.

All the stress is taking (slowly) its toll on me and it's hard to keep up. I'm just a bloody frosh, for crying out loud! *growls*

For my schoolmates out there, (my lovely master, Reg.) and kuya Jordz... me wuffles you guys. *sniffs* you make me wanna stay a little bit longer sa college. xD keep on making me happy. <3


STRESS:

1. Logo and tagline for Animo.
2. Tripod presentation.
3. Homeworks (bloody fags give us too much)
4. Peer pressure.
5. And all those in between, fuck them, yeah.


STORY UPDATES:

1. First chapter complete for Cinnamon.
2. First chapter WIP for -untitled-
3. Fanfics on the go: www.fanfiction.net/~ellicole


Cheers.


EDIT (morning): ... o.o I typed that while I was deprived of sleep. Excuse my weirdness. *3* I should go to sleep early from now on. *nods head to self* didn't get to sleep much... 2 hours... *dies*

What the fucking hell?

Today was totally unfair.

Okay, first of, I gave my story idea and only ONE effing person listened to me.

THAT person (Kuya James) would be my most favorite person of them all. D:

Second, why won't my freaking crush notice me?

And third, I FINALLY had gotten the chance to hang with Mae BUT--yeah, saw that stalker again. @.@ creepy stalker. *kills*

I miss my friends.

I miss... my frosh HS life. T.T

Yes, you read it right.

Tomorrow is our pre-pitching for our task and I'm not even half done with my presentation. D;

I'm completely and utterly and indubitably DOOMED.

AND.

AND! To top my night off... my glasses bloody broke! Yes, they broke! Now, I can't see properly!  I've been squinting at the screen for the past couple of hours! It sucks. T_T

But anywho, today, saw my crush again. He always makes my day.

However, he doesn't really notice--or even--know me. I'm a sad little girl, yes, I am. Hu hu. *sob sob*

EEK. Gotta sleep. Early rise. Early beatings.

*faints*

So... I didn't get to visit Mae-Mae today.

...

I ache all over (hmm...) and I'm just extremely cranky today. I was a bit hyper at the start of the day but as it progresses, all my energy had gotten drained. Eek!

What I have gotten out of today is that I bonded with a few people I didn't know I can get close to before. It's an interesting day, over all. And woot, I saw my Korean crush today. He's at my Algebra class in the mornings but other than that I don't see much of him.

Name, you say? It's Alex in English.

Wee. Blood rush.

Eheh.

...

Wait. I'm forgetting something...

EEK! PSYCHOLOGY QUIZ TOMORROW!

*dies*

You know, I just love hearing this song over and over again.

It makes me cry everytime.

OMG. Tomorrow, free time from college! ^^ Mae-Mae, here I come! *woosh*

Title: Timid Whispers
Author: Elli Cole
Genre: T
A/N: My first drabble here! Yay! x3
Summary: She was there to forget.